Hello all,

This journal is now FRIENDS ONLY.

Ta C xx

Hi everyone,

I've deleted my Facebook and returned to my long-abandoned and long-suffering journal. I'm doing my first ever LATE LATE shift at work and one of not too many I hope. It's already going pretty badly. WE'RE ONLY OPEN TO BOOK IN PATIENTS FFS - YOU'VE HAD ALL BLOODYT DAY TO DO EVERYTHING ELSE - FUCK OFF!!!

Yup. I'm so helpful as a GP receptionist.

Hopefully I won't be doing that for too much longer, a recruitment consultant friend of mine has found me a more than suitable admin-cum-stopgap position with a city-based company, they love my CV, want to pay me £17K+ for 9-5 hours and saw my profile on Facebook and think I'm hot. Haha love it.

Anyway re: the facebook thing.... I'm involved with this guy called Adam, it's ridiculous how smitten I am with him, we work in the same building and I just can't leave him alone. The problem is though, I think I'm his booty call - eek. He rarely wants to see me outside of work and when he does it's always at mine, and he leaves late night/early morning. It drives me nuts, I don't wanna be a stationary cupboard fumble to him. I deserve so much more, but everytime I see him my thoughts melt into one: kissing him, and then I melt. Then I begin to excuse his behaviour. I've tried not kissing him but I'm so miserable then that I might as well take what I can get right?! Anyway Facebook just makes me crazy paranoid, not just with him, with some other people too, also I'm getting quite addicted to it, so it's easier just to not go on it for a while I think. I already have the sweats and I only deleted/deactivated it yday morning!!! :P

I'm really hoping to get this other admin job, leaving would be hard, but this situation is getting ridiculous! :(

Hope you are all well. Love etc

Crick elf xxx

Just a quick note, Haven't posted in 3 months plus :(

Work is better than it has been, still craving another job though. Lots of thoughts of going back to uni, none quite formulated to completion, but there are plenty of options. PGCE/Masters/TEFL etc.

Went out for dad's birthday last night... which was.... stressful but for different reasons than I thought it would be. Work tired me out and I seemed to revert back to being a child at a couple of points, but to be honest, I don't understand the mentality of selfish people I really don't. I guess that's cause I'm a warm and giving person... raar!

Anyway I'm 24 tomorrow and have already started examining my face for wrinkles. I am a lamo. I didn't really think I'd live this long, that's why I have no idea what I want to do.

Ah well. Laters LJ'ers who are left and haven't gone over to the dark side (face book)

LOVE! xxx

I don't really know what to say, I'm feeling very low, tired and restless at the moment, in most areas of my life. I hope tomorrow is a more fulfilling day than today, although Mum and I had an awesome possibly relationship altering chat. I realised a few things that I'd never thought about properly before. I love my mum :)

Hope you are all well out there in LJ-land. Rach, I need your new number, tried to text you on meet up day but got a text from a randomer saying who is this - have you got the right number, evidently not! If you could send it to me on Facebook I'd love you forever :P

XxX

Comment and I'll...
1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

Feeling happier job and weight-wise. Nothing but my attitude has changed which is all down to you lovely folk, thanks for all the comments.

I'm on top of my work, happy to be seeing two close friends tonight, one of whom has been out of the country for the better part of a year and is now all loved up, I saw her yesterday briefly but it didn't count as it was unplanned.
To cap all this off I am in a loving relationship that makes me as giddy now as it did when it started. Swoon. I won't nauseate you all. Stuff is generally good though.... she says cautiously.

The funeral was shitty, I'm glad it's over, because it was so sad, but now stuff just seems empty. I'm here for Sheryl and I hope she always lets me be, that's all I can do.

Sheryl started her new job this week, I'll be on 9-6s all week and she'll be on 12-8s after her training with one weekend in four to work too. You think you have it bad Jenn? :P:P:P

I think that's it really. Still no luck in getting hold of Karla. Boo Hiss Boo. I haven't given up though. I know this is ramble so apologies guys.

Love you all xxx

PS Em - don't you dare remove me from yer f'list in that mass cull your planning, I haven't finished with you yet!! :P

PPS Pete - Hope all is good with you, send me an email and let me know how you are.

Hello all.

I'm having an evening in tonight, I have a funeral to attend tomorrow which will be hideously sad. I started fretting about what to wear and ended up with a black pencil skirt from New Look that in reality is probably going going to be too small, until I realised how pathetic worrying about dress is, I felt thoroughly ashamed and paid and left.

I caught up with Laura G today, she seems well, we had a chat about old times and old friends, it was nice.

Feeling hideously overweight at present, Damn Easter and all the eggs and my last relationship that led to gaining a stone :( I don't like it. I tried comparing myself with the plus-size models in New Look/Evans today and I made it worse. Weight Watchers here I come.

Anyway I hope you are all well. There's a lot more news somewhere in my brain but my head is elsewhere at the moment. I'm a bit messy and emotional. I miss you all, please send me news of yourselves :) xxx

The first post of the year and it's mid-february. Oh Lordy.

Well, I am having a stunning weekend. I caught a train from work yesterday afternoon and without dwelling on all the events that have taken place since then, I feel like I've come out of a long hibernation.

I met Jenn and Ryan in Bristol this morning, and it was perfect. The sun was beautiful in its light and warmth, I even had to take my coat off once. We walked around the port side of Bristol with the boats (and the exploratory!) and the vast expanses of water, and without laying too finer a point on it I could have cried. I was there with these gorgeous funny people who would drive to Bristol to come and see me and just ramble and wander with me. The weather was so perfect and the scenery so comforting and golden in both hue and memory that actually I found myself longing to live there, longing to throw the towel in as far as Manchester goes and return to... well to what. I guess that's what made me laugh at myself checking out PA/Secretary jobs here, because really, scary dreams and disturbed sleep, cold, catless houses and a dingy job in Longsight dealing with ungrateful patients aside, I have too much that I am not yet willing to give up.

That said, I'm lucky that I can look to this area as my home. The train journey from Chippenham to Bristol on a sunny morning is just stunning, I'd recommend it to anyone. Bath was beautiful, everything was beautiful. I won't be surprised if I end up here you know, my wistfulness at today is still making me well up, and I wonder if it isn't time for me to call time on my student experience.

I am happy. The happiest ever. Swoon. And very well (thank you for your concern Peter) I'm just loved up and rather distracted.

I love you all and I've had a very merry Christmas and hope you all have too. I miss you all each day and hope that 2008 is the year that I get to see you all. Maybe that will be my New Year's Resolution this year. Screw losing poundage, I will see you all! Especially Hopefully Jeni and Chris way out in Americaville.

Lots of Xmas Cheer, Cricketh XXX

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Graduated!
2. Did you keep your New Years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No mine is always to lose weight, and it doesn't seem I ever will :(
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No, a girl at work is preggers though, and apparently my cousin did, although we're no close.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
A different cousin was found dead recently, I'd never met her, though it is still terribly sad.
5. What countries did you visit?
Spain and Italy.
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
Lots more pairs of shoes.
7. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 19th - my graduation, June 30th - moving house away from the knobbers.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Moving out of the nightmare house, and into my new happier life, (oh and graduating!)

9. What was your biggest failure?
Letting Tackie get to me ever.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
IBS :(
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My sailor outfit :)
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My parents, they made it through my graduation as if they liked each other, it was one of the happiest days of my life.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Someone really close to me has been shit stirring a LOT of late, not cool.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent maybe? DVDS being a close second.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My 23rd Birthday Party.
16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Bleeding Love or Umbrella ella ella ella....
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
?? Yes????
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Going out/Making friends
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Eating :P
20. How will you be spending NYE?
Hopefully at Narly's.
22. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Yes.
23. How many one-night stands?
One
24. What was your favourite TV programme?
Scrubs/Charmed/Friday Night Project
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No
26. What was the best book you read?
Notes from a Big Country - Bill Bryson
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Leonaaaaaaa!
28. What did you want and get? Red Stilettos
29. What did you want and not get? An ipod :(
30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Stardust
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Worked, and had a sailor party! Yeah! And I was 23!
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
weight loss and a punch up.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
femmy
34. What kept you sane?
Charmed
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Lizzy Caplan
36. What political issue stirred you the most? None

37. Who did you miss? Karla Restall :( and Jenn and Ryan when they moved :(

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Narly!
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
Stand up for yourself, cause noone else will

40. Which LJers did you meet in person for the first time?
not a one....

It's been a while since any post of real significance,

My birthday was AWESOME! I got a great hoard this year, present-wise and am feeling really excited about my sailors and seamen party on saturday, I'm hoping lots of people will show up as I've had a few cancellations in the last week and facebook keeps assuring me I have like zilch people coming. Ok so 23, but 3 of those aren't coming. Woe.

Everyone at choir sang happy birthday to me on monday which was super awesome and made me giddy.

I think I'm giddy most about the prospect of a non-dickheady 23rd year, or is it 24th?

I'm reading a lot lately, which is good as I got many many books on Monday, as presents, and will hopefully be devouring them as soon as I have finished "Eats Shoots and Leaves" which is a rather funny take on punctuation. Oh, what a grammar nazi I be.

Anyway love and fluff to y'all and I be seeing you Manchester folk On Sat'day Ooooh Arrrrrr mateys.

HI GUYS, EXCUSE THE CAPITALS!!!!

I REALLY NEED A FAVOUR, AND IT IS GOING TO SOUND CRAZY. However, can any of you possibly front the cash for this:

http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/NIB-Baby-Alive-Sip-N-Slurp-African-American-Black-Doll_W0QQitemZ170152364727QQihZ007QQcategoryZ15991QQrdZ1QQssPageNameZWD1VQQcmdZViewItem

and I'd pay you back immediately? My friend's daughter has set her heart on this doll for Christmas and they only sell the white version here in the UK.

If anyone can help me out, or even knows of a place in the UK where I can get it could you please let me know ASAP.

Love to you all, Crick x x x

Hello all, it's probably about time for another update, work is going well-ish, it's been hard this last week, but am already looking forward to pay day.

I've been to the doctor for more tablets/nasty vomit drink which aren't working yet, i may go back and ask her to increase the drink to twice a day, not that I really want to :(

I've taken the somewhat monumental decision to skip Pride this year on the grounds that I miss my Mum and I have a good opportunity for a long-ish visit over the Bank Holiday weekend, oh and I really have no desire to see Dickhead Ex-Housemates, coupled with the fact that I hate the claustraphobia that is Canal Street over the weekend. I am gutted not to be singing at the Vigil or marching with my Choir in the parade but shit happens right?!

I guess there's not loads more to say, I spoke to Kay-elf yesterday which was great, she should be coming up soon, also my room is spangly clean because of the life-laundry that Shellie and I inflicted on it!

Anyway that's pretty much it, hope you guys are all good :) Love and Miss you lots. x x x

Stomach pains are owwy.

I am starting a detox diet for 7-14 days on Saturday. Am practicing today. I love sandwiches tho :( and today's was especially yummy, I have a new found love of fruit though.

Shell and I are at Matt and Maurices tonight for tea which makes me excitable.

Teh job is teh gloom today, as is the pain in my back and sides.

Terrible haircut is growing out, and hair is generally glossy, this makes me feel slightly brighter. It needs cutting again, but I am now frightened of new hairdressers, and some old ones. Woe.

Another update in a fortnight, hope you are all well. x x x

I'm sure you were all on the edge of your seats to know this, but I have decided to butt out and just be there for the people who have at various times been there for me :)

Dean and I are off to the theatre tonight and I am excited at the prospect. Also I may get to see the ever-lovely Shaz and Rach :) woot.

I hope all of you are well and enjoyed DH as much as I did, when I finally got a life-break big enough to read it! 

Love x x x

I feel I should update. Not much is going on, I have a sore throat today, so I bought a lemon and some honey to make myself honey and lemon drinks with today. 

I'm getting through my assignments at work pretty fast which is getting me down as there is nothing to do, and it creates hassle for the management as they have to find me something to do. I hate having to walk into the office these days when I've finished all I've been assigned after an hour! I'm trying to pace myself, I really am. :(

My loffly choir who I loff did a mini-concert at UMIST last night which went pretty damn well, my throat is killing me today though as I really am not a soprano 1, and I had to sing A Whiter Shade of Pale last night which includes some killer notes. Then we went for a small drink in Taurus and I got chatting with Sarah who is so nice, she even gave me a lift back to mine! Awwww. 

Tonight there is a Sapphonics rehersal, which I am happy about, we are singing Caravan of Love that Esther arranged, and I have *finally* tracked down and copied the version of One Voice that we did all those years ago in CLOGs so we are going to try that piano-less tonight, I really hope it goes well because I love it!

Apart from that I may not get my full deposit back because Becky hasn't paid her rent for the last two months, she doesn't even pay it, her parents do! I have a horrid feeling she's away at the moment, and it needs to be sorted by the weekend. GRRRRRRRRR!

Well everyone, I got a 2:2 which blows, I kinda wish I hadn't bothered trying so hard, and it doesn't help that everybody I know seems to have got a 2:1, must be my Italian. Have yet to see raw scores, but am not feeling particularly great. Text messages appreciated of love and smushyness.

Argh! I love my new job, seriously I heart it!

At first I was quite tearful because I felt really pressured, but I'm surprised at how quickly things are coming to me and how confident and at home I feel here. The people are all lovely and don't mind helping me out where they can, and today I was told that I can use the surgery room with the computer during my lunch break, which is fantastic as my housemates have gone away for a bit and packed up all the computers (including the one they were loaning me) for security reasons.

I saw Sarah and Weezie yesterday at Bramall Halls, which I've never been to, we had a chatter and a few hot drinks and then I headed back to Manchester as I was tired from my half a week's work. It was lovely to see them and I shall miss them immensely. Then I saw Shell before she went dancing and then I went over to Kezi's gorgeous new place, in Rusholme. It is beautiful, but sadly I'll be moving to Whalley Range soon and so we won't be within 10 mins walking distance as we are now. We had a good chat about work, friends, money and Mum's bday plans and then I wandered home before it got too dark. 

Also Kezi has new hamsters - Muffin and Biscuit! EEEEEK.

Also number 2, I'm getting my degree results next week. Gulp and double gulp.

I think that's all I have to report on right now, love to you all, esp Fi as I haven't spoken to you enough recently! x x x