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Wild Abandon
January 2014
Sun, Jan. 5th, 2014 09:54 pm
Unsure why all my options are in Italian. That's okay though I guess.

How are we all? Been a while, huh?

I turn 30 this year. It's on my mind somewhat. Need to be things and achieve things and generally be awesome. It naturally follows that I discover Candy Crush and devote all waking hours to it. What am I like.

I have no goals to achieve before I'm 30. Just want to be happy I guess. Happy, less neurotic, less jealous and just, well, better mentally. Get outside my own head once in a while and just be. That's be swell.

Nice to touch base with you guys.


Crickle xxx


Thu, Jul. 14th, 2011 05:43 pm

... I thought as much.


Tue, Mar. 3rd, 2009 04:14 pm
Hello all,

This journal is now FRIENDS ONLY.

Ta C xx


Tue, Jan. 13th, 2009 06:06 pm

Hi everyone,

I've deleted my Facebook and returned to my long-abandoned and long-suffering journal. I'm doing my first ever LATE LATE shift at work and one of not too many I hope. It's already going pretty badly. WE'RE ONLY OPEN TO BOOK IN PATIENTS FFS - YOU'VE HAD ALL BLOODYT DAY TO DO EVERYTHING ELSE - FUCK OFF!!!

Yup. I'm so helpful as a GP receptionist.

Hopefully I won't be doing that for too much longer, a recruitment consultant friend of mine has found me a more than suitable admin-cum-stopgap position with a city-based company, they love my CV, want to pay me £17K+ for 9-5 hours and saw my profile on Facebook and think I'm hot. Haha love it.

Anyway re: the facebook thing.... I'm involved with this guy called Adam, it's ridiculous how smitten I am with him, we work in the same building and I just can't leave him alone. The problem is though, I think I'm his booty call - eek. He rarely wants to see me outside of work and when he does it's always at mine, and he leaves late night/early morning. It drives me nuts, I don't wanna be a stationary cupboard fumble to him. I deserve so much more, but everytime I see him my thoughts melt into one: kissing him, and then I melt. Then I begin to excuse his behaviour. I've tried not kissing him but I'm so miserable then that I might as well take what I can get right?! Anyway Facebook just makes me crazy paranoid, not just with him, with some other people too, also I'm getting quite addicted to it, so it's easier just to not go on it for a while I think. I already have the sweats and I only deleted/deactivated it yday morning!!! :P

I'm really hoping to get this other admin job, leaving would be hard, but this situation is getting ridiculous! :(

Hope you are all well. Love etc

Crick elf xxx


Tue, Oct. 28th, 2008 08:56 am
Just a quick note, Haven't posted in 3 months plus :(

Work is better than it has been, still craving another job though. Lots of thoughts of going back to uni, none quite formulated to completion, but there are plenty of options. PGCE/Masters/TEFL etc.

Went out for dad's birthday last night... which was.... stressful but for different reasons than I thought it would be. Work tired me out and I seemed to revert back to being a child at a couple of points, but to be honest, I don't understand the mentality of selfish people I really don't. I guess that's cause I'm a warm and giving person... raar!

Anyway I'm 24 tomorrow and have already started examining my face for wrinkles. I am a lamo. I didn't really think I'd live this long, that's why I have no idea what I want to do.

Ah well. Laters LJ'ers who are left and haven't gone over to the dark side (face book)

LOVE! xxx


Wed, Jul. 16th, 2008 09:25 pm
I don't really know what to say, I'm feeling very low, tired and restless at the moment, in most areas of my life. I hope tomorrow is a more fulfilling day than today, although Mum and I had an awesome possibly relationship altering chat. I realised a few things that I'd never thought about properly before. I love my mum :)

Hope you are all well out there in LJ-land. Rach, I need your new number, tried to text you on meet up day but got a text from a randomer saying who is this - have you got the right number, evidently not! If you could send it to me on Facebook I'd love you forever :P



Wed, May. 7th, 2008 04:16 pm
Comment and I'll...
1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ.


Tue, Apr. 8th, 2008 05:26 pm
Feeling happier job and weight-wise. Nothing but my attitude has changed which is all down to you lovely folk, thanks for all the comments.

I'm on top of my work, happy to be seeing two close friends tonight, one of whom has been out of the country for the better part of a year and is now all loved up, I saw her yesterday briefly but it didn't count as it was unplanned.
To cap all this off I am in a loving relationship that makes me as giddy now as it did when it started. Swoon. I won't nauseate you all. Stuff is generally good though.... she says cautiously.

The funeral was shitty, I'm glad it's over, because it was so sad, but now stuff just seems empty. I'm here for Sheryl and I hope she always lets me be, that's all I can do.

Sheryl started her new job this week, I'll be on 9-6s all week and she'll be on 12-8s after her training with one weekend in four to work too. You think you have it bad Jenn? :P:P:P

I think that's it really. Still no luck in getting hold of Karla. Boo Hiss Boo. I haven't given up though. I know this is ramble so apologies guys.

Love you all xxx

PS Em - don't you dare remove me from yer f'list in that mass cull your planning, I haven't finished with you yet!! :P

PPS Pete - Hope all is good with you, send me an email and let me know how you are.


Wed, Apr. 2nd, 2008 09:24 pm
Hello all.

I'm having an evening in tonight, I have a funeral to attend tomorrow which will be hideously sad. I started fretting about what to wear and ended up with a black pencil skirt from New Look that in reality is probably going going to be too small, until I realised how pathetic worrying about dress is, I felt thoroughly ashamed and paid and left.

I caught up with Laura G today, she seems well, we had a chat about old times and old friends, it was nice.

Feeling hideously overweight at present, Damn Easter and all the eggs and my last relationship that led to gaining a stone :( I don't like it. I tried comparing myself with the plus-size models in New Look/Evans today and I made it worse. Weight Watchers here I come.

Anyway I hope you are all well. There's a lot more news somewhere in my brain but my head is elsewhere at the moment. I'm a bit messy and emotional. I miss you all, please send me news of yourselves :) xxx


Sat, Feb. 9th, 2008 05:23 pm

The first post of the year and it's mid-february. Oh Lordy.

Well, I am having a stunning weekend. I caught a train from work yesterday afternoon and without dwelling on all the events that have taken place since then, I feel like I've come out of a long hibernation.

I met Jenn and Ryan in Bristol this morning, and it was perfect. The sun was beautiful in its light and warmth, I even had to take my coat off once. We walked around the port side of Bristol with the boats (and the exploratory!) and the vast expanses of water, and without laying too finer a point on it I could have cried. I was there with these gorgeous funny people who would drive to Bristol to come and see me and just ramble and wander with me. The weather was so perfect and the scenery so comforting and golden in both hue and memory that actually I found myself longing to live there, longing to throw the towel in as far as Manchester goes and return to... well to what. I guess that's what made me laugh at myself checking out PA/Secretary jobs here, because really, scary dreams and disturbed sleep, cold, catless houses and a dingy job in Longsight dealing with ungrateful patients aside, I have too much that I am not yet willing to give up.

That said, I'm lucky that I can look to this area as my home. The train journey from Chippenham to Bristol on a sunny morning is just stunning, I'd recommend it to anyone. Bath was beautiful, everything was beautiful. I won't be surprised if I end up here you know, my wistfulness at today is still making me well up, and I wonder if it isn't time for me to call time on my student experience.